-=the daily grind=-

somebody hates you. Hahahahaha! Last night Eunice googled me and lo and behold, I am in someone’s blog. I have googled myself in the past but for some reason I have not chanced upon the said link. This girl is cursing me for making her believe that her crush’s girlfriend looks like a dude. I don’t particularly remember talking to this girl in college. Oh well. In fairness to her, she didn’t seem to be bitching–she was just a bit disappointed because the girlfriend turned out to be so much better that what she thought. Hooha.

Who of us have mundane lives? Maybe everyone, we just don’t know it. I have recently come to accept that law school is killing me, and understand how it kills me. I don’t regret going to law school. I have always known it’s something I was meant to do, a calling if you will. I don’t care if I don’t practice it, I’ll have a law degree in 2 years time, that’s all that matters. I remember being flattered and pleased when I passed the LAE in my 4th year college. I passed it in the time there was still an interview apart from the written test and the consideration of college grades. To have a slot in the UP College of Law was so coveted, so aspired for, and I passed the effing entrance test! But I soon saw (a rude awakening if you will) that UP (I don’t know it it’s the whole UP or just the college of Law) is not for everyone. And goddamit I’m everyone (everywoman)! After 2 years of evading the issue, I could not turn a blind eye to it anymore. I regret going to UP, yes I do. And thankfully, (I’m being selfish now) I am not alone. I should’ve gone to Ateneo, it’s more fun there, the people are easier to get along with, and I can go home everyday and not have to stay in a dorm the entire school week. And the best part is, WON I am in the best law school, it won’t matter because in my mind I’ll be thinking that I AM in the BEST LAW SCHOOL. That’s what Ateneo does to Ateneans…raise them up to believe they’re the best (which to a certain degree is sad–how many dead end Ateneans do we know who thinks the world owes them favors). I don’t mean to be disagreeable, just honest.

Just saw "The Perfect Catch" with Eunice. Loves it. An honest to goodness chick flick, that’s why I liked it. There’s a line Drew Barrymore says, that’s something like "when your heart is broken, a part of you just shuts down." Yes. Don’t I know it. Why are we shitting all over ourselves? Hohum.

Today I have resolved to retire some people in my life — the smart one, the Napoleonic one, and well, some others. And today my gratitude for the people who are in my life that I love was reinforced. When you get lonely, think — you already are a whole and complete person. Your family loves you, your friends love you, heck, there are even people you don’t know who hate you (meaning your existence counts because of the handful who bother to conjure an opinion about you when you don’t even know their name). Wahoo.

Today’s resolution: I will not watch Pinoy Big Brother anymore! I have a life mind you. It’s better to live it rather than watch other people living theirs.

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