Thank God for fresh starts and the erased past. I have a clean slate today. Today can change my life forever. So no hiya-hiya anymore. Go for the gold na toh. Pray for me.
Happy Birthday Larla! I miss you terribly. See you in 6 weeks. Mwah.
And he is inspiring. I just found out this afternoon the he is THE reason why one of my friends is in law school. She heard him talk in one of those alternative career seminars we have in college, and right then and there, after listening to him, she decided "tang-***, dito ako". She took no other law school entrance exam but UP’s, and she doesn’t regret a single thing about her decision and on whom is it based.
This guy does not disappoint. He’s god-fearing, smart, hard-working, passionate, cute (hihi) and very intelligent. In short, he is VERY lovable, and I LOVE him. 
To those who know me very well, they can all attest to the fact that I have new crushes every other day. And I un-crush them just as fast. Trisca makes a mean impersonation of me– "Oh my god, Trisca…I have a new crush!" So is this a new crush? Yes. Yes. Yes. To be anal about it, it’s not really brand-spankin’ new. It’s not a Cher-exclaims-I-love-Josh-and-the-fountains-light-up-and-water-spurteth-over moment in Clueless. We’ve liked him since 1st year because he’s so damn cute. Hihihi! And he dresses well. And he’s eloquent, and witty, and…
Let’s see next week, this entry might be laughable to me by then. In any case, let me just say, with full confidence that as to this point my mind will never change, he is not your average human being and is very worthy of admiration (and I mean the lofty, noble kind). I remember in my theo class in college, the professor was discussing love. He was wondering why girls insist on getting it on with boys who were, well, boys. He said (and I remember like it was yesterday) "kayong mga babae, wag kayong kukuha ng lalaking papalakihin niyo pa." Shet. IG (Inspiring Guy) is not the type I have to, um, raise and rear (although in literal terms it is arguable, hihi, low blow!). Of course adding to his likability is the fact that he is painfully unreachable. How very 80s.
To end this entry, I’ve always had this theory that a girl and guy can never really be just friends. If they are, it’s because they’re both attached, either is attached, or they’re siblings. The first 2 are not guarantees even. And if you’re psycho and a sexual deviant, the last won’t stop you. Eeeewwww. Anyhoo, it is not an original theory because Oscar Wilde thought so too (smart minds…): Between men and women there is no friendship possible.
There is passion, enmity, worship, love, but no
friendship. I re-read it while reading messages in my inbox earlier. Food for thought.
Good night girls and boys, till we meet again. 
The SAGITTARIUS Nov. 22 - Dec. 21
Optimistic, Freedom-Loving, Jovial, Good-Humored, Honest, Straightforward, Intellectual and Philosophical
Blindly Optimistic, Careless, Irresponsible, Superficial, Tactless and Restless
While Sagittarians are the nomads of the Zodiac, they do not wander aimlessly. They are seekers of the truth and will go anywhere and talk to anyone for answers to their questions. Knowledge and wisdom drive them and provide the energy for their liberal approach to life. Sagittarians are drawn to the philosophical and spiritual because these subjects provide answers to the questions that burn inside them.
Sagittarians are the intellectuals of the Zodiac. They are lucid thinkers who appreciate others agreeing with their conclusions. Sometimes they are so confident their deductions are beyond dispute they become dogmatic and argumentative. Still, the Sagittarian quest for information drives them to listen to anyone and absorb what they find useful and quickly disregard the rest.
It is the nature of Sagittarians to roam freely. If they feel intellectually or physically restricted they may become bad-tempered very quickly. When Sagittarians are given the freedom they need they are kind, optimistic, lucky and not afraid of taking an occasional risk. They are also a charming lot who can be self-indulgent procrastinators. Overall, Sagittarians allowed the freedom they need are a delight to be around.
The Sagitarian In Love:
Sagittarians love any new form of sexual expression that challenges and excites them. Both tolerant and eager to please, their honesty can sometimes prove too much for those who prefer a more mysterious, or veiled approach to love.
Sagittarians are best involved with a steadier, stronger personality, who can understand their need for independence, yet still be there after an occasional flair of temper. Their frank and open motives are often misunderstood, threatening to more subdued signs.
Although they hate to be tied down, they are willing to experiment with all manner of relationship styles. As long as their partner is able to keep up with their wide-ranging interests and is prepared to come up with new experiments in lovemaking (and certainly does not mind them doing the same), their relationship will be exciting and reasonably long lasting. Mutual honesty is the key to success for the Sagittarian.
Famous Sagitarians Include:
Sir Winston Churchill, Ludwig van Beethoven, Mark Twain, Francis Albert Sinatra, Jim Morrison, Walt Disney, Dale Carnegie, Bruce Lee, Steven Spielberg, Phil Donahue, Jane Fonda, Uri Geller, and the Dalai-Lama
Ideal Jobs Include:
Sagittarians are well-suited to careers as travel agents, explorers, professors, photographers, ambassadors, import-export traders and thrill-seekers.
Lucky Numbers:
9, 18, 27, 36, 45, 54
Planet: Jupiter
Star Stone: Topaz
Element: Fire
Most Compatible With: Aries or Leo
STRENGTHS: ORIGINAL, TALENTED, IMAGINATIVE
WEAKNESSES: UNREALISTIC, AGGRESSIVE, CLINGY
REACTION TO LOVE, SEX & RELATIONSHIPS: Be open to her oddities. She has to do things his way, no matter how odd they seem. But that’s what makes her so interesting, so go with her flow if you can. Once she feels connected; she’ll love you with all she’s got. And with her sexual intensity, that’s something you shouldn’t miss.
BEST LOVE MATCHES: February 23-March 2, July 11-18, November 12-18.
There is something wrong with Friendster. When I tried replying to all the comments made in my last blog, the window just reverted back to my home page. Lest you think I’m shrugging off your 2 cents, here are my comments to my beloved readers’ comments:
First, thank you for reading my blog. I was hesistant to write at first because I was afraid of judgment and thought my life wasn’t all that important to post on-line and the fact that I’d do so might be construed as an attempt to propagate my self-importance. Well, guess what. I don’t give a flying f*** anymore. And it makes a world of a difference! Thank you for making me feel like I made the right decision. This thing is VERY therapeutic. I hope by reading each other’s blog (yes, I read yours too) we all, in our little ways, help each other.
To Dych and Rich — Teeheehee! Thanks for finding that girl’s blog. Nakakatawa noh! You guys should google yourselves too. I’m sure you’re bigger "celebs" than me. Naks. Check out Teddy Te’s blog too ha (thanks Rich for showing me where it is). Should I comment?
To Ana — Yes, it could’ve been you. But you know, if it’s any consolation, the smartest, most intelligent people I know, I met in UP Law. The most quirky, the most fascinating, hell, even the most difficult and the most conniving, I met here. I’m still hoping the future might show me I didn’t make the wrong decision. There are a number of things I learned here that I’m thankful for. It’s just that, everyday I think, should it be this hard? Could I not get to where I want to go through another route, another way (an easier, more comfortable, more home-y way)? I’m not saying it’s sisiw in Ateneo. But law school is hard enough as it is. Why didn’t I go to where I’m most comfortable with?! Where the people are easier to deal with. As the Fuzzy said, UP popped our suburban bubble. And we’ve been so used to the teachers reporting to class regularly and actually doing their job. The thing in UP is we learn inspite of our teachers (and their politicking). Phew, there. Yes, of course I’ll let you know when I’m dropping by Rockwell.
To CJ — Aba, meant to be na meant to be. Yes, I understand you as I know you understand me, and there may be times when the signal is awry, but the connection surely returns. It’s just the motions. Some days you’re up, some days you’re down. But know that I think you are doing very well in school, no matter your personal assessment (ambastos!) of yourself. Hello, I can’t do half the things you do! And you balance everything so well. You. Have. It. Made.
somebody hates you. Hahahahaha! Last night Eunice googled me and lo and behold, I am in someone’s blog. I have googled myself in the past but for some reason I have not chanced upon the said link. This girl is cursing me for making her believe that her crush’s girlfriend looks like a dude. I don’t particularly remember talking to this girl in college. Oh well. In fairness to her, she didn’t seem to be bitching–she was just a bit disappointed because the girlfriend turned out to be so much better that what she thought. Hooha.
Who of us have mundane lives? Maybe everyone, we just don’t know it. I have recently come to accept that law school is killing me, and understand how it kills me. I don’t regret going to law school. I have always known it’s something I was meant to do, a calling if you will. I don’t care if I don’t practice it, I’ll have a law degree in 2 years time, that’s all that matters. I remember being flattered and pleased when I passed the LAE in my 4th year college. I passed it in the time there was still an interview apart from the written test and the consideration of college grades. To have a slot in the UP College of Law was so coveted, so aspired for, and I passed the effing entrance test! But I soon saw (a rude awakening if you will) that UP (I don’t know it it’s the whole UP or just the college of Law) is not for everyone. And goddamit I’m everyone (everywoman)! After 2 years of evading the issue, I could not turn a blind eye to it anymore. I regret going to UP, yes I do. And thankfully, (I’m being selfish now) I am not alone. I should’ve gone to Ateneo, it’s more fun there, the people are easier to get along with, and I can go home everyday and not have to stay in a dorm the entire school week. And the best part is, WON I am in the best law school, it won’t matter because in my mind I’ll be thinking that I AM in the BEST LAW SCHOOL. That’s what Ateneo does to Ateneans…raise them up to believe they’re the best (which to a certain degree is sad–how many dead end Ateneans do we know who thinks the world owes them favors). I don’t mean to be disagreeable, just honest.
Just saw "The Perfect Catch" with Eunice. Loves it. An honest to goodness chick flick, that’s why I liked it. There’s a line Drew Barrymore says, that’s something like "when your heart is broken, a part of you just shuts down." Yes. Don’t I know it. Why are we shitting all over ourselves? Hohum.
Today I have resolved to retire some people in my life — the smart one, the Napoleonic one, and well, some others. And today my gratitude for the people who are in my life that I love was reinforced. When you get lonely, think — you already are a whole and complete person. Your family loves you, your friends love you, heck, there are even people you don’t know who hate you (meaning your existence counts because of the handful who bother to conjure an opinion about you when you don’t even know their name). Wahoo.
Today’s resolution: I will not watch Pinoy Big Brother anymore! I have a life mind you. It’s better to live it rather than watch other people living theirs.
Just yesterday I thought I was going to start smoking again. To the smokers out there, you know how it is — you feel restless, a bit sweaty, you wring your fingers every 2 minutes to no avail. It just doesn’t come close, a cig is what you need. Thankfully, I did not yield. Discipline is now spelled with an M-A-R-I-E. Naaaaaaks.
For maybe 3 years now I have been checking this guy’s friendster page every time I’m online. I used to have a crush on him but now, I’m not sure. A little na lang siguro. So anyhoo, the whole time he’s "in a relationship". Shucks. He’s just not that into me.
I have had the same hair style for maybe 2 years now. I’m contemplating getting it colored but am a bit scared. It might make my hair dry, it might make it brittle, or it might turn out to be a disaster, things I don’t need right now. So okay, maybe I’ll muster the courage to do it soon.
In the afternoons I sleep and eat merienda. Everyday I eat something sweet (cake, ice cream, both). When I’m home in Las Pinas I drink my favorite concoction of the moment — tomato juice mixed with pineapple juice and 3 ice cubes. Yummy! Every Sunday morning I eat breakfast in McDo, Monday mornings in Jollibee.
Have I become a creature of habit? Has the spontaneity disappeared? No no no no!!! I refuse to believe it. Next month I’m hitting the gym.
