Bliss is Ignorance
To know or not to kow, that’s the question in my mind lately. For the past few days I have been an (un)willing listener to out-of-this world revelations from people around me. Actually, I’m grateful that they trust me. I’m grateful I’m someone they find easy to talk to. It’s not really what they’ve told me…it’s how I felt afterwards. I don’t know if it’s nostalgia for the good old days when issues such as those shared to me were things of the distant, unknown future, stuff for grown-ups, or feelings of being trapped. Is this all there is to life? Are these all the witnesses I have who can attest that I have lived some and am still standing?
To not know I think is a blessing sometimes. That way you can see people in their full potential, who they can be and not the mistakes they’ve committed. I am happy I’m more open-minded now. I guess it comes with age. At 18 you’re suposedly mature. I’m 22. What I failed to be grown up about at 18 I should have made up for now. And, I’m not exactly sure if it’s a good thing, I feel more free to say "I hope I can be more like you". It should be a good thing because it means I’m more capable of wishing bigger things for myself. But after I’ve attained them, what? I guess what I’m saying is that when you don’t know anything , everything excites you because everything is brand-spankin’ new. Once you know a few things, or lot of things for that matter, it’s harder to be excited. At the back of your mind you think, yeah yeah, sure, that’s not the first time I heard of something like that happening to someone. Life loses it’s newness.
Jaded at 22, what’s there to look forward to? I suppose the answer should be, STLL EVERYTHING. Because life, though it has revealed some to some people, has yet to reveal all of itself to me. And I have yet to suck it dry. So here’s to finding newness in the life you’ve always had…*clink*
July 4th, 2005 at 8:47 pm
Drama mo bata pa tayo. Haha. Comown let’s suck it! Let’s SUCK IT DRY!!! Read my blog, lovah. Nag-vent ako.